periphery
11:47

#sakanaction #music #lyrics #サカナクション 
ホーリーダンス / サカナクション

外の音が鳴り止む時間 闇に 着飾れた水面

子を追いかけて飛ぶコウモリを 見上げて深く息した

When all sound outside stops the water’s surface is decorated by the darkness
As I looked up at the bats chasing their children I breathed a deep sigh

痛みに 鈍くなりだす年齢 ひそひそ笑うように踊るルアー

藻がこびりつく世界に飲み込まれて行けないな行けないな

The years beginning to sound dully into my pain are a lure dancing like quiet laughter
I mustn’t be sucked into the world of clinging algae

だから今を 置いて 上へ 飛びたいな
That’s why I want to fly up above now

泡になって消えていく石鹸 頭の多くを占めてる不安を

こねくり回して川に放り投げて捨てたいな捨てたいな

Like soap disappearing into bubbles, I want to wash away the many worries occupying my mind by throwing them in the river

だから今を 置いて 上へ 飛びたいな

That’s why I want to fly up above now

ホーリーダンス ホーリーダンス ホーリーダンス 放り出して 逃げ込んだ

ホーリーダンス ホーリーダンス 放り出して 逃げ込んだ

HOLY DANCE HOLY DANCE HOLY DANCE I threw them away and escaped
HOLY DANCE HOLY DANCE I threw them away and escaped


だから今を 置いて 上へ 飛びたいな
That’s why I want to fly up above now

ホーリーダンス ホーリーダンス ホーリーダンス 放り出して 逃げ込んだ

ホーリーダンス ホーリーダンス 放り出して 逃げ込んだ

HOLY DANCE HOLY DANCE HOLY DANCE I threw them away and escaped
HOLY DANCE HOLY DANCE I threw them away and escaped


ホーリーダンス ホーリーダンス 放り出して 逃げ込んだ

ホーリーダンス ホーリーダンス 放り出して 逃げ込んだ

HOLY DANCE HOLY DANCE HOLY DANCE I threw them away and escaped
HOLY DANCE HOLY DANCE I threw them away and escaped

23:52

#before sunset #film #words 
"Even being alone, it’s better than sitting next to your lover and feeling lonely." — Celine, Before Sunset
23:51

#before sunset #film #words 
"Maybe what I’m saying is, is the world might be evolving the way a person evolves. Right? Like, I mean, me for example. Am I getting worse? Am I improving? I don’t know. When I was younger, I was healthier, but I was, uh, wracked with insecurity, you know? Now I’m older and my problems are deeper, but I’m more equipped to handle them." — Jesse, Before Sunset
23:50

#beloved #toni morrison #words 
"She is a friend of my mind. She gather me, man. The pieces I am, she gather them and give them back to me in all the right order." —

Beloved, Toni Morrison

Need to reread this so bad…

02:04

#before sunrise #words #film 
"I don’t know, I think that if I could just accept the fact that my life is supposed to be difficult. You know, that’s what to be expected, then I might not get so pissed-off about it and I’ll just be glad when something nice happens." — Jesse, Before Sunrise
02:03

#before sunrise #words #film 
"OK, well this was my thought: 50,000 years ago, there are not even a million people on the planet. 10,000 years ago, there’s, like, two million people on the planet. Now there’s between five and six billion people on the planet, right? Now, if we all have our own, like, individual, unique soul, right, where do they all come from? You know, are modern souls only a fraction of the original souls? ‘Cause if they are, that represents a 5,000 to 1 split of each soul in the last 50,000 years, which is, like, a blip in the Earth’s time. You know, so at best we’re like these tiny fractions of people, you know, walking…I mean, is that why we’re so scattered? You know, is that why we’re all so specialized?" — Jesse, Before Sunrise
02:01

#before sunrise #film #words 
"I always feel this pressure of being a strong and independent icon of womanhood, and without making it look my whole life is revolving around some guy. But loving someone, and being loved means so much to me. We always make fun of it and stuff. But isn’t everything we do in life a way to be loved a little more?" — Celine, Before Sunrise
01:59

#Before Sunrise #film #words 
"I believe if there’s any kind of God it wouldn’t be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there’s any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone, sharing something. I know, it’s almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt." — Celine, Before Sunrise
01:49

#the kills #music #lyrics 

the kills - future starts slow

and after all God can keep my soul / England have my bones / but don’t ever give me up / I could never get back up / when the future starts so slow

no longing for the moonlight / no longing for the sun / no longer will I curse the bad I’ve done / if there’s a time when the feeling’s gone / I wanna feel it

you can holler / you can wail / you can blow what’s left of my right mind / you can swing / you can flail / you can blow what’s left of my right mind / 
(I don’t mind)

there’s a time for the second best / and there’s a time when the feeling’s gone / but it’s hard to be hard I guess / when you’re shaking like a dog

you can holler / you can wail / you can blow what’s left of my right mind / you can swing / you can flail / you can blow what’s left of my right mind / 
(I don’t mind)

-

repost, but apt. feeling slightly more sane and pulled together after writing a mega long wall of text to Y. 

I know I don’t have many bridges left because I’m always far too prideful and afraid, but I’m glad there are a few that remain. 

it has always been therapeutic to verbalise and organise my thoughts. that natural desire for order, for making sense out of everything/nothing. 

I figured that I’m so fixated on Tokyo because it was what really opened my eyes, I think. being open to a new way of being, a new sense of joy and freedom that I never found here.

maybe this is as good as it gets. an extraordinary experience in an extraordinary time and an extraordinary set of circumstances. maybe I was just too damn lucky once and it’s unlikely that I’ll ever experience this kind of joy again. maybe I’m just naive to aspire to this. maybe I’m just an entitled millennial who is perpetually discontent. maybe happiness is just what we’ve always been told, always internalised - once the stability is there, no longer needing to live hand to foot, the happiness will follow. to ask for anything more is foolish.

or maybe it’s not. 

just so much hope, and apprehension, for the future.. 

sad and lonely and it would legit be so, so much easier to not give a fuck. I wish I didn’t give a fuck. 

just gotta keep it together and make it through the next few weeks. I can do it. 

01:05

#passion pit #music #tokyo playlist #lyrics 

passion pit - take a walk

I’m just too much a coward to admit when I’m in need

take a walk

tokyo playlist

1. dancing on the empty suburban streets

2. morning train rides among a mass of people

3. summer sonic, tokyo. in the dark, the hands around me casting gleeful, almost victorious shadows on the pink screen